Friday, October 21, 2011
Knowledge
So, its like my standard routine alr now. Wake up 3am and do stuff before going to sch. And today will be the last day. 2009 thought me well not to get too attached to things and today's leave will be meaningless to me. Hated coming here from the very start and the last day is finally upon the small minority of us who just want to get this over and done with. Only one regret though... 4th Feb 2010 #Sigh
And ever since that day, of which the date shall not me mentioned, coming to school knowing that you lost the battle doesnt help at all. TWICE. Loyalty is earned but one sight was enough to ripp it away. And the second: Seeing ppl coming to school, they look all the same. But to the group of us who know full well what happened and what i promised to do, but i chose to give mercy over dealing the finishing blow. We know it isnt the same. I come to regret that as well. They are most vulnerable when THAT scenario was played out. I know too well alr. Been there done that before and the results was morally wrong but the satisfaction that you get knowing that your plans fell into place so perfectly like beads falling of a string. And it DID happen. But its not that i didnt know, its just that i didnt want to do anything about it coz i gave sympathy instead. #Sigh
And yesterday i met my LONG TIME fren. And what he said. Really woke my idea up. THAT coming out from his mouth, in his tone, coming from someone like him. Really kicked the nonsense outta my head. Guess you havent met my kind of people yet. Lemme guess, you got it more than twice alr? And the twice that i know of, happened in less than a period of 1 week? Huh... Big deal... I have met your kind before! And foreva in 02:221 !
So time has come to leave the self proclaimed "Hallowed Portals" ... LIKE FINALLY. Nothing can replace 2009. Period. Hated the players, Hated the game. RAWR!
And if i do miss, its gonna be my Brothers and Sisters, and my Abangs and Kakaks ... And yes, i do make a distinction between them.
Wednesday, October 5, 2011
Spoil Mood
If angry isnt the word to use...
Oh well, 35+ more days? I didnt expect anything much also... So, i wasnt the first. Humph... At least now your father mother happy rite? Real Angry now... No mood now... Shouldnt have done what i did...
Things happen not for a reason, but because permission was given for that particular event to occur. Thats what i believe. For instance,Who would have thought i would see this view? BARE FOOTED?
"Whats done is done" ~ Weaver
